MINE!

gals nowadays

2009-04-29T20:51:00.002+08:00

i don understand gals nowadays...

guys that older than us definately can afford a car...

its like they are in the working society ffs...

cant u see the logic...

no wonder it said that nva speak logic to gals...

guys at our age got car?...

we can only envy them cos they are born in rich families...

wat to do...years from now...

i make sure u ppl regret it..

damn it about money...

money cant buy true love and in this world now...

but ppl just like to judge by money money and money only..fk it..

sian arh..

2009-04-21T04:40:00.002+08:00

sch reopened...received my proj...and its like wth with my proj sup...
wat a good start with a person i don like la...
and with the expectation from u ppl...
its really kinda stressful...
who will understand that...
ppl just say "aiya u don need to scare la.. so smart sure can do it de"
mind u...i nt good with stress management...
breakdown is just sooner or later...
and thats mean emo bevin is back...
congrats bevin for being able to emo...
things are nt going well for me for the past weeks...
so much had happened...
only happy times would be MTC and Week 0...
really appreciate u guys for all the fun....

it was until today...then i understand how deeply it was...
it was until today...then i know i haven give up...
i don know le...next 19 weeks will be a torture for me to endure...

dotsdotsdots

2009-04-03T09:00:00.000+08:00

missing...sth is missing...ROAR...

there...

2009-03-18T19:45:00.001+08:00

there u go...this post is specially wrote to someone very special....my one and only mei...i post le hor....lim qiuling...i want my alcohol!...

mct mct mct

2009-02-18T00:14:00.003+08:00

its doesnt change the fact that i still like you...
i said i try to give up...
i still cant do it...
why do u want to say it like giving up is just a easy stuff...
its nva been easy liking u..
neither will it be to give up on u...
screw it man...

i don want to

2009-02-12T02:20:00.002+08:00

i don want to be mr nice guy...
i don want to...
u guys only find me to solve ur probs...
0nce u are done...
who give a fuck about wat happen to bevin...
sick and tired of all this...
have u ever try waking up in the middle of the night...
worried that other ppl proj nt done and doing it for them...
while they are just slping soundly in their own bed...
ya...ppl do get tired when they lack of slp...
then im nt human?...im won get tired?...
try slping 4 hrs each day for whole fking month....

resolution

2009-02-07T06:48:00.002+08:00

i think im only able to complete the first 2 resolution if im nt there to bother her...
things are going to be better for her if im nt around...

its time just to complete my last resolution...

changes

2009-01-11T06:49:00.002+08:00

things have been changing quite alot for my life..

well at least for that 1/2 a year or so...

2009 will be better for me?...

i doubt so...too much things changed...

well esp for the past week...

receive a phone call..might change job if they have better offers...

MP grp changed...ppl asked me why i choose to be with her...

i can give u a simple reason...cos i know i can work with anyone...

and if i left her alone with ppl that are availble in the grp...

i can say is risking her result...i might nt be better than anyone....

but im sure i won let her affect her grades...

and last but nt least...my dad is declaring bankrupt...

yea~...ppl which facing this prob won say it out..

but ya...hell knows wat will happen to me if i hold in within me for sometimes...

bear with me if im showing attitude to anyone...

cos u would know by now that im nt ok...

i nva been ok since start of the sem...

this had haunt me long enough for me to say it out...

ppl that don know will just say that im thinking too much...

well enough...i don blame u for ur ignorant...

understand?

2009-01-05T23:35:00.002+08:00

谁又能了解我的感叹?...生,老,病,死是在所难免的...

My resolution for 2009:

1.)For her to be happy

2.)be able to help her whenever she need

3.)able to give up on her

再一次

2008-12-16T04:53:00.000+08:00

再一次的不知所措。。。

我爱你

2008-12-11T00:33:00.001+08:00

我爱你但又不敢开口。。。

守护着吧。。。

珍惜

2008-12-10T04:31:00.003+08:00

就让我珍惜我现在所拥有的。。。

与此同时不要在叫我放弃。。。

因为我们相处的时间所剩不多。。。

让我有一些些美好的回忆。。。

我知道我配不上。。。

我知道我没資格。。。

我只想付出。。。

我没想要回报。。。

只要她快乐就好。。。

恋上（另）一个人

2008-11-28T01:01:00.003+08:00

忽然一场阵雨

世界缩为屋檐

你熟悉的侧脸

回头就在眼前

一分神丢了手里烟

坠落了燃烧的岁月

让画面再接回从前

省略了昨天的昨天

后来的你好吗

有比较快乐吗

我应该高兴吧

却又说不上话

雨打湿你右边的肩

泪滑过我左边的脸

这就是唯一的关联

当爱是仓促的句点

你曾是我吻过我爱过也伤过

拥有过却错过的情人

这样太残忍

你现在总是刻意保持陌生

你吻过你爱过也恨过

拥抱过却犯错的情人

我不能过问

没权利再问

他是否对的人

后来的你好吗

有比较快乐吗

我应该高兴吧

却又说不上话

我们是两条平行线

再没有任何交叉点

只留下心酸的感觉

当爱是仓促的句点

你吻过你爱过也恨过

拥抱过却犯错的情人

我不能过问

没权利再问

他是怎样的人

非要等到爱远走分两头

才知道多不舍你走

留在午夜梦回醉

掏了心伤心对自己说

非要等到爱远走分两头

才知道谁都怕寂寞

一直有句话要说

你是我今生今世的守候

你吻过你爱过也恨过

拥抱过却犯错的情人

我不能过问

是我先转身爱上了错的人

the truth

2008-11-23T04:45:00.000+08:00

THE TRUTH...

numb

2008-11-11T20:41:00.002+08:00

i lost my emotion...

im numb of everything...

no matter how perfectly imagined my life could be...

i had no control of it....

in term of relationship,work,sch,family...

i seem to be have total freedom of life...

yet im tied down by reality...

now when i think of it...

i think everything is bullshit...

reply

2008-11-05T02:33:00.002+08:00

...... was given as reply....so much thing going on...and some that i talked to may doubt wat i say...u can don believe...cos i need no one sympathy...im strong enough to go thru it myself....i just need some time cos im tired...

handle it

2008-10-28T21:21:00.003+08:00

sth really big happen ba...

i haven experience it before...

i don know how to handle...

im lost without anyone to talk to...

im struggling yet again this time...

and its totally different from the past....

i don know if i could make it through...

i don see colour of life...

i lost my hopes...

i could only see darknesss...

help me pls...just anyone out there...

...

2008-10-27T03:22:00.001+08:00

i see the difference in me...i felt the difference...

i learn the difference...

and in the end...im just ruining myself...

been there done that...

nth else to prove...

i must learn to put myself as my priority...

learn

2008-10-24T04:30:00.001+08:00

learnt to give up...learnt to see things in other point of view...

tried to be optimistic but i failed...

learnt to move on with life...

this just sucks...

2008-10-07T21:51:00.001+08:00

i need a change of environment...

and its doesnt pay to be kind...

reason

2008-09-22T10:32:00.002+08:00

i need a reason to hang in there...

2008-09-20T06:54:00.002+08:00

if been independent...doing things myself...

keeping probs to myself is emo...

i could only said that ppl nowadays are too dependent...

u don even know how fortunate u guys are...

and u are here trying to compare everything with me and tell me im emo?...

wake up ur idea...

nt everyone is as pampered as u...

u don even need a job to substain ur living...

and u seriously nt treating the work serious enough...

if u are telling me that u are better...

ffs...u just ran to others for help when u are in trouble like they are ur mum....

how long have u been working and u are repeating the same mistake...

and fk u cos i know wat im doing better than u...

i didn even bother to compare and talk back...

cos u are nt in my league rather than i will lose...

face the reality...the world isnt a fairylan where u can find ppl that let u do wat u want...

childish asshole...and u are older than me...that the funny part...

i don ask for help cos im TAUGHT to be indepedent by my parent....

and i don find it wrong...fk...

u are 19 of age and cant solve a single thing by urself?...

compare who end exam earlier....compare wages....

wtf u still want to compare?...who have more dick hair?...

and pls la...don come and tell me this gal interested in u...

that gal always bugged u to watch movie with...

do u think i FUCKING care?...

coming to work and treating it as a game...

if that the way of u working...i rather u quit the job...

talk to me....

2008-09-19T06:10:00.002+08:00

i need a talk that badly...

i don know wat am i doing...

ruining my life when each day pass...

guess i had only a single way to get it off...

wat am i doing man...

just ranting on blog to keep track of myself....

well...that all the best for me again...

...

2008-09-03T02:25:00.002+08:00

its as usual...im in my own world for holis...

and i do wonder bout some stuffs...

tonnes of stuffs in my mind yet i cant get to talk...

those that really can hear me out are having their own troubles...

listening to them let me think twice before asking them to be my listening ears...

fk...

2008-08-18T02:08:00.002+08:00

asked nt to be run by emotions but brains...

and there ppl that cant be handled with brain methods...

and speak of immature and childish...

im sure im much better that u...

and u cant differentiate from a joke and wats for real..

pity u...cos u don have at least bit of humor in ur body...

sick

2008-08-15T00:59:00.002+08:00

He who give up does nt win...

and winner does nt give up...

then i'm a loser...

feeling so sick recently...

i think i am going to get ill soon...

ppl around me are kind of nt in the mood...

so i tried to be at least normal...

and trying to act normal when im nt is hard...

just hope everyone find their answers to their problems..

live life to the....

2008-08-09T15:27:00.002+08:00

living life to the fullest is wat i heard...

yet i have been living it to the failure...

i find it hard to communicate with most ppl around me...

none really understand wat i doing, thinking and aiming for...

missed

2008-08-03T15:29:00.001+08:00

i miss wat i missed...

and yes...im drunk yet again...

hang over sucks....yet i deprive of drinks...

fool

2008-08-01T00:20:00.003+08:00

Hahaha...wat a fool i am...

and those that know me well enough knows wats happening...

well..things are nt in my control...

and i shall live by it...

overall...things are nt going well for me...

trying to control myself with the bits of energy left in me...

hesistation kills...and i meant it...

summary

2008-07-27T15:57:00.002+08:00

i could only said that this week totally sucks...

i enjoyed friday's drinking with my colleague...

drunk is all way we get and we had to drag ourselves to work

on sat night...everyone had hang over during work...

and i finally release out wat i had been holding in..

a breakdown during work...

well my qns are still nt answered...

...

2008-07-24T01:07:00.001+08:00

i fucking no mood for anything...

yet i cant get to slp...

insomnia came to visit me agian...

wat a long lost friend indeed...

痛痛痛

2008-07-23T22:53:00.003+08:00

痛...处了痛...还是痛...

the more i don believe in gods...the more it make fun of me..

FINE...

u made me make a choice...and that all i get for making a damn choice...

i will nva bow down to u...trust me...u ASSHOLE GODs of all religion...

2008-07-21T20:31:00.000+08:00

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?' Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. It is not just in some of us, it is in everyone, and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

choices

2008-07-21T01:39:00.002+08:00

everyone have to make a choice at least once in their lives...

some are forced to take it...

some have free will on it...

im forced yet im breaking thru it...

tougher it gets...harder i struggle...

im left with minimum to pass each day...

deadlines are there and im struggling with it also...

how i wish there someone i could talk to...

and well...ended up talking to myself....

im really tired of life...

new life

2008-07-09T00:51:00.002+08:00

hmm...qling told me that to change my lifestyle i must get a timetable..

hmmm...ok...

12AM to 2 AM :- Self reflection and emotion evaluation

2AM ~4AM :- brainstorming with probs

been there done that...

2008-07-06T21:38:00.002+08:00

im just thinking too much....seriously...

2008-07-01T15:52:00.001+08:00

FK...parents

doctors...

2008-06-26T06:44:00.002+08:00

i went to doctor on wed...

only blogged out now cos i just reach home....

he said my insomnia is due to overstress...

maybe i do have alot of probs...

i cant recall..lols...

total of 6 hrs slp for last 4 days...

and still counting...

2008-06-25T03:43:00.001+08:00

fuck...fuck...fuck...

im nt getting enough slp....

2hrs each day is a torture...

i need to see doc soon...

fking tired in the morning...

fking active at night...

lying on bed for 3 hrs cant even get to slp....

wtf is happen...

i can only doze off at 6+ then 2 hrs wake up go sch...

my limit is near man....fk it...

i don know

2008-06-23T02:07:00.002+08:00

i don know wat ppl at my age are thinking...

cos i tend to think about my future...

i worries for it...

i planned 2 different kind of life i will have...

of course there a worst one...

total there 3...

i wonder when will world end...

im so irony...

i want to wanted to see world end..

yet i don want it to come so soon....

i wonder if we are still living the next yr...

or the year after next...

how many bday can i celebrate....

no wonder ppl say i look old...

cos im thinking things that don really came across to the ppl around my age...

emo ness

2008-06-19T05:33:00.002+08:00

some have been asking if i had emo recently...

yea i still emo...nt as often...

cos i have see the ugliness of human..

my mindset and thinking had been set to the most negative of it...

how can a person be feeling down when his already at the bottom...

smile is to nt let whoever cares to worry....

laugh is to cover up my sadness...

and i love to stay up late...

cos i could be who i want to be without any worries...

serenity of the night keep my thoughts deep...

and i sought for an ans...

notice it pls

2008-06-17T01:04:00.002+08:00

it will nva be noticed...

thoughts running...

im holding to nth...

我只想说。。。。

2008-06-12T22:59:00.000+08:00

我只想说。。。。

sick

2008-06-11T20:05:00.002+08:00

ok..im officially sick..slight fever...

and that don account to the headache that im having...

i still cannot get to the cause of it...

killing me everytime i wake up...

lets hope all this don ruin tml for me...

2008-06-08T21:11:00.002+08:00

work had nva been that enjoyable...

working 3 days next week...

pay is coming i think in 3 weeks time?...

getting tired and sleepy easily...

felt so old...

i want to be alone this week...

well well

2008-06-05T01:25:00.002+08:00

well..it doesn pay to be kind...

so i won be...

self is the word...

and trust no one...

this week wasn a great one...

don look forward with the celebration...

shall reject it...

lets hope next week will be a better week...

cos it been long time since we 4 gathered...

and there is a new defination of friends on some ppl...

so don be amused why i suddenly give a cold shoulder...

its coming

2008-05-27T23:03:00.002+08:00

well...i sense it coming...

and i know its sooner or later...

cos i had too much free time for me to think...

playing games might make u think im lifeless...

but i have my reason...

that the only way i could avoid things..

that the only way to switch me from thinking...

life is bullshit...im nt happy...

it will nva be understood...

busy busy

2008-05-26T22:55:00.002+08:00

im quite busy for the coming weeks

don really know if can cope with work...

avoidance of probs solve my emo...

yet thats nt the way of solving probs...

seen alot heard alot learnt alot...

this will be the place i will rant and emo...

have to find things to commit agian...

sadded

2008-05-24T01:13:00.003+08:00

i got so much to say....

so much things to tell her...

she must get well soon...

she will be fine...

why is things so unfair to her....

i really don know wat to do...

pray for u is the only thing i could do now...

hope to see u soon...

happy bday to mk also...

thanks for inviting us to party....

shag

2008-05-17T21:19:00.002+08:00

too much things happened this week....

i getting tired and having headache easily....

having too much things to worried...

getting to my limit...

break down is just a matter of time...

byes....

dots

2008-05-05T02:38:00.002+08:00

i thought a question today..

it been long since i emo...

and i think i know the reason...

so keeping me busy is the best way to stop me from emo...

gaming is the best way...

yet gaming make me waste my time..

and i nt been thinking anyhting except game...

2008-04-30T01:22:00.000+08:00

skipped lectures as i just couldnt wake up...

such a long day today...

it will be a longer one tml....

skip

2008-04-29T01:45:00.001+08:00

didn go sch today...

was last min planning...

get easily tired...

sick...

new things

2008-04-27T02:29:00.002+08:00

there too much new things for me to handle...

e learning...dead meat le...

still able to nt to slack that much...

still tired...and im down with a flu...

bball-ing quite often recently...

rest is wat i need most now...

its also wat i put at the last of my to-do-list....

New sch term

2008-04-24T00:55:00.001+08:00

sch started out fine...

just that i cant adjust my timing back...

cant concentrate well enough...

i just hope history won repeat itself...

cos bevin ain't stupid or crazy...

he want to have a good future...

dead

2008-04-16T19:25:00.002+08:00

yea...im just a nobody ba...

u can just find crow and guys to replace...

i shouldnt be nosey in the first place...

so be it ba...

lets just take that pass few weeks was a dream...

and both of us nva knew...

cos we nva knew from the start...

understanding

2008-04-15T04:17:00.002+08:00

i seem to understand myself more each day...

well...getting more mature i hope...

suddenly felt that i grew up too fast...

have to get sensible and responsible in life...

my plans had been double confirmed...

still gt 4 yrs...yea...but its settled anyway...

this time i did a right choice i guess...

happy today cos i saw through it...

and it now time i shouldnt get involve in it...

have to change my timing and lifestyle this week...

cos sch starting next week...

stressed up only by the pay and nth else...

im nt the same guy anymore i guess...

i grew with more understanding of myself...

Light

2008-04-14T16:02:00.000+08:00

i finally see the light....
i finally see the light....

i finally see the light....

drastically

2008-04-12T15:51:00.002+08:00

its nt easy at all...thats wat i did...

thats the fastest way i do...

hate me ignore me if u need to...

i shouldnt be there in the firsst place...

involved

2008-04-12T13:04:00.001+08:00

as a friend...im getting too involved and nosey...

thats all i have to say...

left 1 week and i have to start adjusting my feeling for the new sem...

i don want to get the same grade again...

zzz

2008-04-11T13:04:00.002+08:00

things are trying to make fun of me eh...

either no one ask me out...

or one shot all go out...

zzz...

i didn slp from last night chalet...

and i am going out overnight today...

goodluck to me...i will and i know how to take care....

yy don scream at me when u see this...

wat am i doing

2008-04-08T03:09:00.001+08:00

i don know how long i can last...

it isn right at all...wat am i doing...

help me pls..help me...

done

2008-04-07T03:44:00.001+08:00

holding on to sth i shouldnt be having...

things are happening in a weird way...

anway...its hard to explain..

just random observation from me...

it turn into private blog for some reasons...

wat to do...

2008-04-03T14:15:00.002+08:00

i did a stupidest thing in my life...

but i thought that it was the best thing for me...

blame me hate me if u want...

well..im selfish enough to do that...

Sorry

2008-04-02T01:45:00.002+08:00

sorry for my attitude today..

sorry that i had nt enough slp even i know im going out...

sorry for speaking up...

sorry for having so many problems lately...

sorry for being so stupid and naive to get into april fool joke...

sorry for being sorry..

sorry for being tired out that easily...

sorry for being wanting to give up again...

sorry sorry and sorry...

im really tired...physically and mentally

Happy April Fool

2008-04-01T02:19:00.005+08:00

so in the end...

its just an april fool joke..

i still went in for it...im so stupid....

happy april fool day...

and thats the worst joke i ever get in my life...isn funny at all...

hack care...

2008-03-30T06:16:00.002+08:00

i nt going to care wats going to happen....i just going to it my way^^...haha....its better than a 0% which that case i be keeping quiet about it...going camp next week...will be missing out some of the actions in the guild...activities was planned for next week..its going to be busy week...

dots

2008-03-26T04:30:00.002+08:00

mesmerised.....

it isn a great thing at all...suffer is all it left for side effects...

SIANZ

2008-03-24T04:23:00.002+08:00

sianz...18/7 gamer no kick...lvl 80 liao....need to find sth to do...get to known a few friends...going down chinatown on tuesday....overnight...i think so ba...nva planned yet....im still at home alone as always...used to the quietness alone..it can really make me give in some thoughts in my life...had to do some plans for my futures..yea..i still don know about my future....this few days will find some inspiration for life...and lucks isn my best friend..i think i know wats going on...kawaii eh...but haiz..lols...

the blog is active

2008-03-19T21:53:00.002+08:00

once this blog active...sth is going to happen....and is in a very wrong way...just me and my knot in my mind..can do anything about it...now just a 18/7 de gamer...going on a lifeless game...hook of the communication with my social circle...o well...then so be it ba...its also a great thing to be a lifeless kid..at least that wat i want to do..i could be quiet...so quiet that i think i might go mute soon..

things arent going to be the same again

2008-03-03T23:21:00.002+08:00

things arent going to be the same for me...and it might be just another obstacle in my life ba...to mould me into a person i truly is...meaning i won get back to who i am...won enjoy wat i had been enjoying...i'm getting so realistic that i really won do things to make me happy...i doing things that only beneficial to me...even by hook or by crook...i must make my life my way...

motivation?...no way

2008-02-19T02:26:00.002+08:00

no motivation to study...tired yet cant slp...no aim in wat i want to do...mind in blank state...
why do i torture myself for someone
why do i always have to do that...
at least these few days i was at home emoing...
now then i know that forcing myself to laugh or smile was that hard...
even watching a show was a torture...
but yet i'm those that scare to die...
i don know how to change this feeling into motivation to study...
said to be back to normal...
but in the end was still avoid...
3 yrs ago was avoided and took us so long to be such good friends...
and it took only 3 days to change everything...
things is happening too fast for me...
my life is too fast also...
emo is the only way to slow things down by a little...
get me something to do pls...

great time

2008-02-18T01:25:00.002+08:00

had a great time ytd night...great gathering...great drinking session...and had a great chat...
even had a great sleep after that...full 10 hrs slp...clocked 22 hours of slp this week...i don know how long will this last man...i really could take it anymore...things had happen too fast and
too sudden...it went out of control and i had no mood to study for exams...

xiang tong

2008-02-16T00:14:00.002+08:00

maybe its just shouldnt had been told...let just forget it and continue with our life...bought a psp...yea!...got so much satisfaction...maybe cos of wat had been happening for the pass few days...hais...jiayou..bevin...u should be used to it by now...jiayou...my destiny maybe just had a limit to everything

歌曲：擦肩而过

歌手：李圣杰 专辑：收放自如

我爱着谁
爱到我有点醉
告诉我你是谁
能够把我让我变不对
你不会累
但我却爱你爱得好累
从没有为了谁
不顾安危付出一切
站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

你听我说
你不要这么做
你不要看着我
说你已经知道怎么做
你很难受
我愿意陪你一起承受
只要你不怕痛
再多坎坷我都陪你走
站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过
~~end~~

...

2008-02-14T21:56:00.002+08:00

been to the beach in the evening...came to realise alot...i know le...i understand le...i will stay away for good...

歌曲：靠近

歌手：李圣杰 专辑：收放自如

走在人挤人的走道我问了自已
没有爱情的人是否会长命
那些电影常常让人感觉甜蜜
但是我不相信
坐在没有人的角落我又问自已
究竟应该继续还是该放弃
没有人能了解我现在的心情
想看你想躲你难以决定
每当我想靠近你总会装冷静
眼看你的表情仿佛已经说明
我只想要证明我们这段爱情
也许在你眼里它只是个游戏
我只想要靠近也很想要抱紧
会想到那过去和现在新的你
我还想要参与你的生活点滴
只要你肯相信
我一定会陪你走下去

坐在没有人的角落我又问自已
究竟应该继续还是该放弃
没有人能了解我现在的心情
想看你想躲你难以决定
每当我想靠近你总会装冷静
眼看你的表情仿佛已经说明
我只想要证明我们这段爱情
也许在你眼里它只是个游戏
我只想要靠近也很想要抱紧
会想到那过去和现在新的你
我还想要参与你的生活点滴
只要你肯相信
我一定会陪你走下去
能不能够让我再说我爱你
还是你已不想听
能不能够把你彻底的忘记
我是真的搞不清
每当我想靠近你总会装冷静
眼看你的表情仿佛已经说明
我只想要证明我们这段爱情
也许在你眼里它只是个游戏
我只想要靠近也很想要抱紧
会想到那过去和现在新的你
我还想要参与你的生活点滴
只要你肯相信
我一定会陪你走下去
只要你再相信
我们会轻轻地靠在一起
~~end~~

been there...done that...

2008-02-14T17:40:00.002+08:00

done wat i would want to do...been where i want to be...i know i know and i know...understand...understood...i'm just nth at all...i will back off and shut up....i will nt be there anymore...i will not speak another words out of my mouth...drink and get drunk for the past few days was awfully...but at least it much better than how i felt now...i cant imagine if i finished my bottle of remedy...i would go get another one soon...

最後的風度

2008-02-14T11:08:00.002+08:00

actually didn want to complete watever i wanted to do...but come to thought of it...i must do it...even if that won be handed over to her...

歌曲：最后的风度

歌手：罗志祥 专辑：舞所不在

没有人介入
所有人觉得你该满

足
我把心血全都付出
你为何想要哭

为你作主
让你受到我的保护
可是你像受苦
到底是谁难以相处

我给你幸福
你问我什么才是幸福
这个问题反而让我
把你看个清楚

你怕束缚
我的爱没能把你驯服
你没有退路
那倒不如爽快结束

就让你见识我的风度
你离开我要不要庆祝
我不怕爱的残酷
反正我很想跳舞

我最喜欢挑战孤独
我也爱放下包袱
没有谁我也不舍得哭
我我不在乎

你觉得痛苦
我倒不愿意为爱受苦
只有这样我才做到
对你的背叛宽恕

想你幸福
想不到分手你才幸福
是谁的错误
我不认输我忍得住

就让你识我的风度
你离开我要不要庆祝
我不怕爱的残酷
反正我很想跳舞

我最喜欢挑战孤独
我也爱放下包袱
没有谁我也不舍得哭
我没有空在乎

就让你见识我的风度
我忍痛温柔的祝福
你会一生都记住
我要你铭心刻骨

我最喜欢挑战孤独
我也爱放下了包袱
没有谁没难度我最怕哭
爱要爱得投入
却不在乎

2008-02-14T01:12:00.002+08:00

eh yo...now blogging...don know is in right state of my mind nt...cos i drank 3 cups of...haha...one mixed 2 pure...i was too high...i left the present to her undone...i at the brink of failing my cds...omg...cds also can fail...this sem really is screw up...and i don think she even concern...AHAHAHAHAHA...done...

洋葱
作词/作曲:阿信(五月天)

如果你眼神能够为我
片刻的降临
如果你能听到
心碎的声音
沉默的守护著你
沉默的等奇迹
沉默的让自己
像是空气
大家都吃著聊著笑著
今晚多开心
最角落里的我
笑得多合群
盘底的洋葱像我
永远是调味品
偷偷的看著你
偷偷的隐藏著自己
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现你会讶异
你是我最压抑
最深处的秘密
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸你会流泪
只要你能听到我
看到我的全心全意

听你说你和你的他们
暧昧的空气
我和我的绝望
装得很风趣
我就样一颗洋葱
永远是配角戏
多希望能与你有一秒
专属的剧情

i'm hers 洋葱...and yet she won notice it...

Cant Sleep

2008-02-13T04:40:00.000+08:00

say watever u all want ba...i'm better off then before...at least i don emo in front of u all...at least i won do anything to hurt others...at least wat i do is just on myself...i didn drink nor doing anything stupid...so i don find it why that emo-ing is wrong...one of my defence mechanism is up...saying everything as if i'm right...i'm might nt be right but i'm happy with it...bu zhi bu jue and its is the 3rd day liao...so much thing running thru my mind...i cant get to slp...i must find things to get me busy...so busy that i will forget time...

i think i might i would

2008-02-12T23:38:00.000+08:00

haiz...wo xiang wo zhi dao le...out of those 2 possibilities...haha...i know wat are the ans...don worry...i will try nt to emo...

2008-02-11T23:36:00.000+08:00

Really appreciate that she watch movie with me...such a simple sentence and she said that i think too much...haiz...she kept repeating it until i also sian le...i know and i know... and i also repeat le...i won think over the line...i know my limit...i know we are just friends?...today i was led to the two extremes...i don know wat to do le...bye...

Bored....Bored....Bored

2008-02-11T15:14:00.002+08:00

today went to school early cos very bored at home...then observe that eng student have alot are weird ppl...me is those that are exception de...ok le...receive her msg....meeting her for movie liao...bye...

confused

2008-01-26T22:27:00.000+08:00

i can now only blog when i working ba...just don get caught...and it so difficult to understand girls...someone invent something to some sort of letting me able to read their minds ba...the way she treat me was at the extremes ba...haiz...24 hrs isnt enough for me

Exams

2008-01-23T08:19:00.000+08:00

exams are coming for everyone...my only worries now is for my edevice...haha...will have to mug thru the CNY ba...i still don get her....sometimes so good to me...sometimes having cold shoulder on me...eh...wat she really want eh....

2008-01-19T18:45:00.000+08:00

there is A there is B...so wat the choice?....

switch(choice)

case A:sometime cold shoulder sometime nt

case B:bossy. mafan. and nth else

Work work

2008-01-16T22:51:00.000+08:00

heyhey...now blogging using free internet in transit...slacking ma...hopefully won get caught....i just realise that she really isnt for me...i cant stand her anymore...haiz...continue my working schedule will get me fallen sick soon...my body cant take it....thats all..go liao...if nt really get caught

post post

2008-01-09T12:31:00.000+08:00

2nd post of the day....first time one day post twice...i wasnt even on one of the 3 names that she put down...haiz...gtg

Sch SCh SCH...

2008-01-09T10:35:00.000+08:00

wa..so damn tired eh...in sch now...late one hour for the comp prog...laer still got work...i hope can cope ba...term test was an total disaster...17/50 for Edev...25.5/50 for biochem...27/50 for biofund...and lastly.. 78/100 for maths..woohooo...but this i also nva emo...not been emo-ing for 2 weeks ba...(at least not in front of my friends ba...)...ok le....i stop posting here...going class soon...

Emo

2008-01-04T19:36:00.000+08:00

i nva emo for this week...thats a yea for Bevin....but my results wasnt so well...a boo for it...then lastly...my work is confirmed...another yea...so is 2 'yea's to 1 boo...this week...Bevin is happy...

Bullshit

2007-12-31T06:18:00.000+08:00

haha...as u can see from the time that i posting...gonna bathe then go out soon..haven been slping yet...although i said watching show..but actuallyi cant slp...why?...i also don know..this year is ending..and i'm counting down to the end of carinna's and junhao's bday...maybe i should intro them together eh?...haha...just receive my xmas present that i long wanted...bruan buffel wallet...haha...cheapo de ba...haha....that all..rushing down to inter to get my ic...

Sick!

2007-12-29T20:26:00.000+08:00

nt been posting for quite some time...and yea..thought that i won get sick for this holis..but still...the traditional stuffs...flu and fever came just 3 days later then usual...

had a great time during the gathering ytd...but just the feeling wasnt there for me ba...i don think i belong there...or is it that i changed so much that there no sense of belonging....i think i will give it a miss next time onwards...

hmm...came to thought of it..i really think that i changed so much that i don even know myself le ba...my emotions gets to gain controls over my mentality easier...i get agitated that easily that i cant even stop it...things happens nt i wanted to...and neither i want to get so worked up that easily..i just cant control..haiz...finds some ways to stop it...

Exams...

2007-12-17T04:44:00.000+08:00

Exams ended last week...then again...i really hope that time rewinds so that i could really study for it...but anyway...it already past le...watever results already fixed...just blame for nt studying for it ba...but i cant regret...cos regrets are meant for the dead...haha...really would want to work out my time for this 2 weeks...got projects and stuffs...class outing confirmed on 21st...as for clique...sorry ba...u all want u all plan...i really tired of all this...think of it...i think i shouldnt be bothered or get so much involved about the class...others don put it as priority then why should i get so involved...really wish this sem end fast...so i wouldnt have any commitment...or i should learn from andre?...hmm..caught warlord on sunday...nt really to my expectation anyway....mainly bcos i put high hopes on it...yet the storyline soso nia...haha...got time will have to find some of my friends to hang out ba...

Haiz...

2007-12-07T13:57:00.000+08:00

been spending alot of time on my com for the past few days..then i still cannot get it fixed...wait for my dad to sponsor to get a new harddisk...haiz...one came and one go...then the one that cames goes..the other one is back....carinna...i nt like junliang despo de hor...i clear my thinkings...and i think i really will stick to it...tired of wat i am for the past 2 weeks..the choice i made frmte start is the right one...haha...sian...one person in sch study really is boring...stupid hongwee meet friend go eat...but nvm...he left his laptop with me...haha...

Draw a damn line

2007-12-06T00:14:00.000+08:00

seriously...things nt getting the way i want again...throwing away my life like nth...someone came right in and mess it up...for that one whole week only 2hrs of slp each day...yea...now i don know wat i really want and wat i don...really have to draw a damn fine line so that my mummy won say i am a *****....u know i know...hahaha..update le...everyone come read better tag...no tag u die...i curse arh!...

Teach me

2007-11-18T18:34:00.000+08:00

teach me wat to do...just realise that my target are unrealistic and unreachable de...i'm just ignorant to think that i could do as long as i am determined...but things arent just go as u want them to be...been drinking at boat quay with friends for the past 2 nights...talking to them really teach me alot...but its just isnt enough to answer all my worries in mind...that all for today...com still down...it been 2 months le...omg...

Wake up!

2007-11-12T17:41:00.000+08:00

i think is time for me to wake up my idea...i might had forgetten bout wat i need for the past few months...i got my target i got my aim...i got my own idea i got things yet to have achieve...i really have to wake up le...

Time needed

2007-11-07T11:15:00.000+08:00

i need time to really think...think too much or nt i don know...just one think for sure...really tarnish all the stuffs..hardly talk le ba...i don feel right when i look at her...the way we speak to each other...she care?...i really doubt so...why must i really lower my pride and talk to her...i know i cant stop thinking of her...ask me talk to her?...and nicely...bullshit...isnt it still cold shoulder..forget it man...

things aint going right

2007-11-05T11:01:00.000+08:00

i'm in sch right now...things aint going right with me...i think only i know wats going on...if u think that kimberly is the case...then u are wrong....i don even give a damn fuck about her...

Wrong!

2007-11-02T19:13:00.000+08:00

eh today big mistake...shouldnt had gone safra for dota...i know i seldom go out with andre they all and must do it occassionally..but i missed the pool game...omg!...i realised my mistake abit too late....mummy should know wat i talking about ba...yet i think i was the one call everyone to go the other night...haiz...my bad...sorry guys...today eat mummy bake de cake...then haiz...so many tasted the same like butter cakes....but overrall is a good try ba...jiayou hor!...

Souls from two different world

2007-10-29T20:26:00.001+08:00

we are just two souls from different world...have no link at all between us...will neither bond nor get any sparks from watever...